examseatingawayatmysoul

SO, since Saturday I have been studying non-stop. Saturday and Monday were dedicated to Modern History, and Sunday was to Biology with Jess. I got a lot accomplished but my ass is sore from being stationary for so long. The bags under my eyes give the illusion that I've been beaten, but thankfully for me (and you, the blogging community) Modern History and Biology are both over and done with. I COULD rant for a million days on how upset I was that Modern and Bio were scheduled on the same day, but its done now, so ~ no point, right?
After every one of my Modern exams I am left with a strange feeling. I don't know if its only me or just a generally accepted effect that Modern Exams have on people, but I was left feeling as if the deepest fathoms of my soul had been dragged out, beaten and subsequently raped. Those exams leave you feeling as unsure and vulnerable as it is possible to be, to the point where your hands shake and your voice gets really high-pitched from worry.
Biology was slightly better, actually a lot better. I needed to know a lot less for the exam then what I studied, which always pisses me off. Why go to all the effort if the exam isn't gonna have a question on it? Oh well. I always seem to finish my biology exams really early, today was no different. We had two hours to do the exam and I was completely finished shortly after the first hour was up. Not to brag and say that because I finished early, its all correct and I'm mad at bio because, honestly, knowing me, I just completely missed the underlying theme of difficulty and soul-rape and only scraped at the layers of inconvenience.
All in all, I'll just have to wait and see what my results are, can't change anything now, so why worry.
My two new favourite stresses are now titled "Visual Arts exam" and "Extension History exam" both of which come into play this Friday. We'll see how I manage to cope ~ the future for me seems bad, life sucking.. such a high and irritating hill must I (and all other HSC students) climb before we reach the smooth sailing of holidays.
*sigh*

Peace.

ps. I really should update this thing more often...